Thursday, June 11, 2009

Fakka (F grade)

Two grades that hold a special position in the grading system: 'A' and 'F', the two extremes... sadly I tasted both in my btech days!
Being in IIIT-H, one gets used to study a few days before exam, not attend classes when attendance is not compulsory and still sail through the exams... everything that I got used to bounced back at me like a sucker punch the day I got the call from Mohit, telling me that I had got F in a course. I felt numb but the uneasiness within felt bitter, painful like a snakebite. I was in Srisailam at that time with my father and visited the temple next day, but the uneasiness remained.
On returning to college a couple of days later I learned about the efforts other students in similar situation had taken but the F was to remain, no change possible.
But it doesn't matter now... one F shook me from within, I felt colder than in those winter nights, the As and A-s felt so insignificant before that F, F felt bigger in size... sigh!
The issue is no longer about CGPA, or doing a course again, but the presence of that F, the message it carries makes it a curse symbol on one's grade sheet... can't blame F, it is being used by us humans for such purpose...
I can now understand how a person must feel after getting a F, I now understand why students who once get a F lose interest in academics because I am one of them now. I'm not ashamed or sad, but rather now I feel I have gained another experience, another feather in my hat.
I haven't told my parents, nor do I intend to because its not a pleasant thing to tell and I now don't have enough courage to face the disappointment in their voice over the phone...

P.S. : Why not remove courses with F, W grades from list of courses taken by the student, how does it matter? The student hasn't passed it, it doesn't matter... he is not related to the course, it holds no significance in his life... why torture him by reminding him that he couldn't go through the whole course! :)

6 comments:

Rahul Tenany said...

Boring post tha yaar. mazaa nahi aaya like your other posts. apne parents ko bata de ki F aaya hai. maine bhi apni family ko prepare karke rakha tha.

karanatiiit said...

SCT?

Devansh Mittal said...

Another amazing post of yours!
Really appreciate the honesty and description of feelings. Its really appreciable thing in you that you are able to identify the feelings inside.

Kindly also try to identify why it hurts when one gets a F grade? What you have lost? Why does it pain?

In the course of exploration you will realize a few more things about yourself and find that your uneasiness is going.

In my opinion, take it as an opportunity to explore yourself which very few fortunate people (who are willing to explore also) like you get.

@nks said...

I konw this sucks ...

but seriously ... It won't matter ... no one's gonna look at you mark-sheet after you start working.

yeh, as Rahul said ... u should tell your parents... its better than them finding out with some other means... :)

Anonymous said...

what was the course ? I'll avoid taking that.

Sufal said...

I agree on your point that Atleast courses with "F" and "W" grade should be removed from the marksheet.